Commas, Maybe?

The silence from this corner is not because I’m bored, or depressed, or too busy. Things tumble  about in my head, but they don’t need to see daylight yet.

This is a period where

It feels like

everything I


or write

must not end

with a


but with a




The words I have declared now feel

less sure.

The sacred and beautiful things

are still all of that,

but I feel I can say nothing,

write nothing,

except to end it with a

question or disclaimer or comma.

A few things I know.

They are great, glad statements that arch over the questions. These things I know and they have no question marks.

I think everything else is sand.


Ending in a comma because each new thing adds to the


Each orbit of the sun reveals a new

aspect to acknowledge.

Each bit of truth adds


so that I can


be wholly sure of what I’ve seen.

I can’t see myself completely ,

never mind someone else

or my surroundings.

It means living with an open hand,

not clenching anything in my fist,

not refusing new things.

Being sure only of my God

in whose hand I am,

and only His words are


8 thoughts on “Commas, Maybe?

  1. Beautiful. May God bless you for putting into words what so many of us feel and cast around to find ways to express. Time to share…….

    • Good to hear from you, Barbara! Thanks for your affirmation. And I still love remembering how you hosted me in Brussels and fed me lemon sorbet in your lovely old kitchen. I bet you forgot that, eh?

  2. so you share the trials of a grad student? the further you get into any subject, the more you know you don’t know. one of my classmates, a masters student exclaimed: “I hate always feeling like a failure”. another student, someone in a phD program warned her: “It only gets worse.”

  3. This is profound. I think this must be one of the most important realizations we’ll ever grasp in this life.

    I love the last four sentences… sums it up beautifully!

  4. Yes. I think, how could I be so sure, so positive of things at 20? And now a few things are surer, deeper, but so many many things are all, as you say, commas and sand and questions and disclaimers.

    On a fluffier note: I tagged you in a meme on my blog. Participation optional, of course.

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