It was a year, as everyone has already noted.
I don’t have words yet to talk well about it, and there are still clouds and questions with no answers. I am hopeful but not glib about 2021. Not chirpy, as my personality tends to be.
This not the place to list last year’s losses. That would take too long and be too depressing. But one immense loss has been choir, choir concerts, and formal and informal singing groups. I feel incredulous that last January, just before the year started unravelling, I went with friends to a packed auditorium in Cleveland to hear the St. Olaf Choir conducted by Dr. Anton Armstrong. I still listen to some of the songs I heard that night. I’m not a gifted singer, but listening to songs and singing with people feeds me like nothing else does and I miss it terribly.
In the darkest, hardest parts of the year, when I couldn’t sing, I listened to others sing. Often it was “Jesus Strong and Kind.” Or “Sure on This Shining Night.”
When everything inside me feels scrambled, I listen to choral music. When I want to rest my soul, I turn on my favorites, this curated list of chorale gems. The voices, harmonies, and chord progressions soothe something deep in me. I start breathing deeper and my focus shifts from troubles around me to the shimmering melodies or words. This list has multiple arrangements and languages of the Lord’s prayer and Psalm 23. Wonder how that happened.
This list are all my favorites depending on the moment, but indulge me while I share my exceptional choices:
- Pieces from Stellenbosch Choir. From South Africa, they have a rare, winning blend of Dutch harmonies and African rhythms. I dream of hearing this group in person some day.
- The first time I heard the stunning soprano lines in Arvo Part’s “And I Heard a Voice,” it took my breath away. Then I read the backstory to the song, and how he composed it in his native Estonian, and now I like it even more.
- Sometimes I wake up with lines from Forrest’s “Come to Me” or Mealor’s “The Beautitudes” in my head, and it makes the whole day better.
- Whenever I hear “Indodana,” I see the silhouettes of the women at Jesus’ cross, weeping with no words. I can’t listen to the song without some emotional fortitude because it’s so sad. But it gives voice to what was the most wrecked night of their lives.
I often think CCM has more honest lament than classical and sacred music does, so I find some CCM lyrics cathartic and healing, but I don’t find most CCM beautiful aesthetically. And beauty is what I need when I’m fragile or sad. Beauty (very loud or very soft) or silence.
Toward the end of last year, I got to sit in on the dress rehearsal for this recorded Christmas concert. The only thing that’s better than singing in choir is listening to your friends sing. While they practiced, I sat on the floor in the back of the gym in the dark and cried because it was so beautiful. Earlier in the year, some of them were also in on this virtual choir and I’m so proud of them.
Clearly, this is the era of virtual choirs. Even though it goes against most of what is true and enjoyable about choir, virtual choirs offer something better than silence and isolation. Last summer, I heard about Eric Whitaker’s “Sing Gently” virtual choir about two days before the tracks were due in. I downloaded the sheet music and the practice tracks, but didn’t have time to finish. That close, I would’ve joined over 17,000 singers to debut that sweet song, and it would’ve been a nice way to remember the year. Maybe another song, another time.
Hope wears thin these days, but in brighter moments, I believe that some day we’ll pack into auditoriums and sing again. I dream of attending a concert like this of Brahm’s “Requiem.” The European elegance, red and black formal wear, the singers surrounding the audience–I would be be in raptures.
Singing aligns all the parts of a person with beauty and goodness, which is one reason it’s so healing for me. In this fragmented, splintered, fraught era, we need more singing. We need songs everywhere. We need truth and beauty and goodness flung around in music and voices and community. We could never have too much.
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Yes I feel often the need to sing these days! Especially in this season in our family, besides all the stuff going on in the bigger world. I can’t use words as well as you can.. But some how singing helps me refocus and recenter- God is, and I trust Him! Thanks for this word.
Good stuff here! I think of myself as a pretty hard core choral/classical gal….but lately I have been listening to (what feels to me like) mild CCM. Its almost an odd experience….cause I tend to view CCM as a more shallow style. If that was my only diet, I think thatd be a problem. But in my current state, I find myself wondering ” What is wrong with you, girl?” Perhaps I shouldnt try to judge myself too harshly. Perhaps there are times and places where different genres minister? Idk…
You would not believe how much I appreciate this list. Absolutely nourishing my soul after too long a hiatus from choral music. Thank you Anita!
On Sat, Jan 16, 2021 at 6:41 PM Tis a Gift to Receive wrote:
> Life is For Living book posted: ” It was a year, as everyone has already > noted. I don’t have words yet to talk well about it, and there are still > clouds and questions with no answers. I am hopeful but not glib about 2021. > Not chirpy, as my personality tends to be. This not the” >
I’m so glad to hear this! Part of my goal in sharing it was to spread joy and light in a time and place where that seems in scarce supply.
I’d say you accomplished that, and I thank you for sharing. “It was a year…” Great intro to a well-written post. I don’t listen to music all that much (some people are surprised when they hear this, but that’s okay), at least not nearly like I used to, but the right stuff can still be good for the soul. 🙂
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I’m not sure what app you’re using, but I’d be happy for a link to the playlist.
My husband downloaded Spotify (the free version) to my phone so I can listen to this. What a treat! Thank you!
So glad you’re enjoying it! You can access it on Spotify’s webplayer on a computer for free too.
A playlist to make the angels weep for envy… Well, actually I’m not positive that angels weep, but I know people do, and I know this playlist is pure gold–proof of the divine among the sons and daughters of men. Your musical instincts are “true and righteous altogether.” Thank you for compiling the list. It’s a noble–and notable–effort to push back against the noise marketed by the hurt and howling culture around us.